First, the author tolerates the suggestions, rather temptations, from an invisible enemy for reasons unknown as soon the eyes open each day. Even though there exist a plethora of fact to levy a charge of guilty to those engaged in what is perceived as a mystery; however, such judgment is not allowed by the author, as his guilt in other areas of life will not justify an act of vengeful behavior. Indeed, patience manifest itself amid the most trying of circumstance.
Secondly, what can one such as the author do in regard to a repetitious act? Simple, the author can do absolutely nothing except hope; unfortunately, many times it seems hope does not exist. Quite the conundrum for a simple, uneducated man such as the author; as he boasts not of knowledge in the realm of that far greater that reaches into the very marrow of bone (a friend stated such).
While choosing silence henceforth, which is a key opening many doors to a vastness unfathomable; interestingly, the doorway is blocked allowing no escape, of the body that is, for the mind controls a portal that the author controls.
“Stand fast therefore in the liberty by which Christ has made us free, and do not be entangled again with a yoke of bondage.” Galatians 5:1
Does the narrow path lead this author, or have errors beyond a capacity hidden prevented entry?
But small is the gate and narrow the way that leads to life, and only a few find it. Matthew 7:14
For a moment, for a lifetime, the author would relinquish all believed known, as well, the responsibility for same . . . may the Everlasting have mercy for utterances in place of silence.